Confession: I have written two blogs prior to this one. One was deleted in a moment of vulnerability. I had written private thoughts in a public forum, which was the greatest thing. I liked the fact that I could write and my thoughts were sent off into the unknown, to be read by the unknown. I had a moment in which I considered opening these gates to those within my known world: More specifically the person who has (and seemingly will ever) know me. And so to save it from the eyes of those not ment to see it I clicked the *delete* button and sent my thoughts and writing into the virtual trash bin, never to be read again. I regret this. It was my most vulnerable time, and probably (from what I remember) some of my best writing. The second blog I wrote was not quite as precious. In fact, I recently discovered that it came up in one user's search for "bitterness in relationships". NOT a huge claim to fame, as I really don't considder myself to be a bitter person. I was hurt then, not bitter. There's a difference. BUT yes this blog still exists, and while I would like to delete it, the lessons learned from my first blog scream for me to avoid handing that blog the same fate. And so it stays. For now anyways.

There is a point to this rant, and it will be found in my next post. I have learned in my blogging years to keep things short, otherwise people get bored and resort to skimming, or closing the page all togehter.