To quit = to be free.

To "quit"

There are numerous definitions. There are various perspectives. There are multiple synonyms. In short it means to do/be the following:

Absolved of a duty or an obligation; free.

The last word in this sentence is key. Free. I joined a team this summer. I liked that. I liked comitting to something and knowing that it would be a constant in my life. Consistancy and routien are good ways to keep yourself moving forward. They give you a base, and the strength that comes with such a structure. I found in this case however, that the cost of such a structure caused more grief than it did good. I clung and forced myself to withstand temptations to relieve myself of this stress on principle alone. I would not be labled as a quitter. I would not prematurely force the finnish of something. I would survive, I would make it mine. BUT exponentialy the stress grew, and tighter and tighter my grasp became as I clung to the reminents of my desire to stay. My desire dissolved and turned into my minds illusions of a better day. This brings forth a question that I have struggled with in various capacities. At what point is it time to stop fighting, struggling, grasping for air and just stand up, turn around and walk away.?